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Saturday, February 21, 2015

一路好走

离开了,她已离开了。
很感谢她陪伴的27年,希望来世再做亲人。
今天见了亲戚们的最后一面,然后就被阿公带走了。
2月21日2015年下午3时35分。

Monday, February 9, 2015

亲爱的阿嬷

阿嬷,
不是很清楚她实际的年龄,但大概接近90岁高龄了吧!子孙满堂,已是阿祖了。
她就住在我的家隔壁,因此她看着我成长,也看着我度过的27年。十多年前,婆婆的家很是热闹,因为叔叔、婶婶、公公、堂弟们都住在那儿。十年前,公公过世了,再加上叔叔搬家了,因此剩下一位叔叔和婆婆相依为命。我很敬佩她的勤劳,那么老了还精力充沛。

小时候,都很喜欢到婆婆家去玩耍。每当5点傍晚,都会盼望着婆婆下班走路回来,然后对她喊一声"阿嬷"。婆婆不会说中文,只会说福建话,因此我们孙子,孙女们都会和她以福建对话。婆婆家旁,养了很多鸡,所以时常去捉她养的鸡。婆婆家后有个小木屋,小木屋里有火水、木材,和锅具。我们都时常去那儿生火、玩火。婆婆都有呼吸困难的病,所以我时常都为她锤背(小时候)。她要求的不是轻微的锤,而是蛮用力的。锤在背里,痛在心里。

可是渐渐随着年龄的成长,都鲜少去那儿玩了,也很少和婆婆讲话了。可是每当婆婆知道我回来,都会煲凉茶给我喝。因为那么多的孙子里,她见我和哥哥的次数是最多的了。

2015年2月6日,婆婆的身体不适,呼吸困难。但她很不想入院观察,她就是那么的固执。事态的严重,结果被强逼入院了。当晚,我去探望她,看着她借助呼吸仪器来呼吸,看着她呼吸困难,真是难过。更难过的是,婆婆叫我"还不要回家睡觉"。忽然,隔壁病床传来豪哭声,转头去看,看到一位病人挣扎着,看来时日不多了,女探望者大哭,男的安抚她。换着我是婆婆,躺在病床上,突然听到隔壁的哭声,心里会不会想自己也时日不多了 。几年前,婆婆也因呼吸困难,觉得自己可能会走了,然后就交代了遗传。婆婆就是很固执,不喜欢人家扶助,死了就算了,也不要连累人家。我们的家族都是酱,都没有活下去的意志力 (因为二哥是其中一个例子)。

今天去探望婆婆,这次亲戚们都来了。遇到了三嬸,结果被问话了一下。
三嬸:"咦,你什么时候回来?"
我:"星期五晚上。"
三嬸:"看你的肚子那么大,什么时候轮到你,要结婚?"
我:"一个人,单身。"
三嬸:"你的拍拖呢?你不要人家啊?"
我:"分了,她不要我了。"
三嬸:"我看她是一个很不错的女孩。你还很年轻,慢慢找另外一个。"
三嬸不是三姑六婆,而是她有很可爱的一面,说话时都很幽默。
过后,我们都进去探望婆婆。婆婆很不喜欢人多看她,所以赶我们回家。换着是我,我也不喜欢多人来看我,看着我痛苦的样子,真的很不自在。希望婆婆早日康复。可能在过多5年,您已是5代的长老了,撑着!

Saturday, February 7, 2015

祈祷

2015年2月7日 2.00am

我亲爱的婆婆,希望你能度过难关。
看到你在病床上的痛苦,眼泪都要掉了下来。
我很想安慰您,安心的休息。倒是你安抚我,这么晚了还不回家睡觉。

忽然间,隔壁传来哭声,转头去看,看到一位阿伯也是很痛苦的挣扎着。看了令人心寒。

命运~

Thursday, February 5, 2015

凑之憋


每当和你一起动机器的时候,我都很想大骂一顿!凑之憋!


Tuesday, February 3, 2015

Interesting~ Interesting~ Interesting

I just started to review all your blog through once again and make me started to understand you again.
There were so many golden sentences you had write down in your blog which make me feel surprise.

1. When guy like other, sure will not break up with the girl; BUT when girl like other, sure will break up with the guy
Agree, most of the guys will do this!

2. When girl like other guy, she will think that the other guy she choose is the best
No wonder you break up with me

3. Girl always want the best thing for herself, that why happen so many break break things
Based on the experience, this sound true!

4. When the best guy she thought is not very nice, then she will back to her ex-lover
This is depended, not all the girls have this feeling


5. If some relation really cannot have a way back, then please keep in mind: "The next will be better!!"
This is the way to console yourself. Of course the next will be better because you won't choose the next guy who has same bad criteria as previous one.

6. When the mind become more mature, then you might thinking that why should I give up the whole jungle just because of the rotten trees??
This world is reality, you may think to conquer the whole jungle, but in fact you are faithful to rotten trees.

7. Always think which is best for yourself, but not always follow what other say~!!!
Most of the people will think that the motivation/goal had set in the mind won't influence by others, in fact this is wrong.

8. Die for a girl is not worth~~ (although I , myself is a girl) Because there are trillion girls outside...

You will not know how is the pain when a guy lost his loved one.

9. When girl hurts u again and again...Be aware because the next time she return, she might get use of u...and who knows.. she will dump u again or for the last time until yr value is zero??!!!
Only happen on materialistic girls.

10. If u have only one choice, Just choose without regret~~~And make her/him forever with u~~~
Condition is both parties must have loyal heart.

LIFE 
Life is difficult
It full of trump and failure
Bravery is important to solve difficulty
Encouragement and intelligent needed too
We live to create our own life
we should make our life interesting
if we die
we enter another world of life
Life never end
The cycle of life grow continuously
Generation will never end
Unless the world end
Life might be boring if we spend lots of time waiting
Imagination is important in Life
Imagination and action will make a good team
These will make the Life interesting
Colorful life will not appear by itself
Difference difficulty should be apply
When we solve one difficulty
We add a color in our Life

Let we control our life
Do not let life control us
Although it has tan of unknown difficulties 
We should try our best to solve and make Life Colorful!
 

午夜的心情

一次的拒绝,可能是你回家了;
两次的拒绝,可能是没空档;
三次的拒绝,自知自明。

经过一次,两次与三次的拒绝,结果来看回你写的部落格,太多了,只读了一部分。刚认识你的时候,都去留意你写的东西,过后也没去留意了。也许拍拖后,因为有你,所以再也不把时间专注在部落格了吧。

刚认识,读你的部落格是一种心情。认识5年的你,再读回你的部落格,又是一种心情。
这两种心情是不一样的。一,是很好奇和关心今天她的状况;二,是在这5年里,是不是她和我所认识的,和她所表达的,衬不衬托。 但,有一种心情是一样的,就是很好奇我有没有被载入在她的部落格里,然后很关注她刚认识我时的看法,和认识我后的看法。

很惭愧、很惭愧。看到了你对你前男友所表达的看法和心情。原来,我们都是以同一个原因而分手。他鲜少的联络你、和关心你。拍拖的女生都渴求个关心,和保持着新鲜感。

这是你写给他的话,相信一样的你会对我说这番话。
1. let u guide yr spirit, not yr spirit guide u!!!
意思是,分手后,要让自己更加的坚强,不要散失去你本来拥有的灵魂。

2. never made a promise and ever break the promise 
不要给任何的承诺,一旦食言了,就是你的错。做不到,就不要承诺,给的承诺,就要永远的实行。

你写的名言名句,赞!
1. 喜欢真的需要原因吗?如果喜欢需要一个理由,那就让我一直找、一直找下去,过后我就一直一直一直喜欢你下去。
2. 被喜欢是一种幸福。
3. Without complicated, life is too simple!!!
4. Do you know that Love can only be said when u sure that u love someone.

I wan someone beside me...
I wan someone comfort me...
I wan someone let me hug...


女生都渴求有个这样的一个男生让在她身旁、安抚她和拥抱她。